Events that you can't seem to run from.

You know in life how there are things that you can't wrap your head around, the ones that leave you asking WHY? (Yes, In all caps)

There are things, people, events, anything really that happens and seems to inevitably reoccur something that you had to put up with as a child and teen because you have no way out, under the parental rule and all. What happens when it reoccurs in adulthood and you aren't sure how to handle it, you were forced to put up with some level of abuse but now you can run from it. So do you?

When your mind scream yes, does your heart counteract, after all the abuse in  your family,someone close to you. You never had the greatest relationship with them and can see life being easier without putting up with their crap but there's your old heart driving you to bind the wrongs and give another chance, but the events reoccur and the mental abuse is on the seam of reappearing do you run and hide or cut all ties before the can of worms comes busting out.

All you've ever wanted was a relationship with them and they have continuously walked on eggshells, one mistake and it should be through, at least that's what your brain says, but then there are your heart and this chance it's screaming!

I've mentioned this family member before and she's back at it again, this time she moved two states to be closer to me and my son. Letting bygones be bygones I toughed it out until I got a call. The friend of my mother calls to tell me that my mother was drunk and this wasn't the first time. My worst possible fear kicked up, that old habits were spilling from the seems and I would not be at the receiving end this time BUT SHES YOUR MOM. My heart and head screamed this time.

I drove to her and confronted her while she was drunk, she lied to my face more than twice, I left, gave it a day and went home, there she was lying to me again. I confronted her and she told me the truth.

Long story short, I gave her an ultimatum, if she didn't stop that she wouldn't be around my children. she promised she wouldn't any longer. Two days ago, another call this time it;s whisky and she's plastered again. Then she lied about something so small again.
I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place because I know that I can't help her and I know that my heart hurts for her.

I don't understand an alcoholics mind but I know that all I've ever truly desired was that relationship with my Mother, and that is why falling into old patterns and giving out chances comes in a split decision and is so easy to fall into, I feel like Im falling back in time and Im torn.

Thanks guys
Madye