You’d never think..

you would never see it coming, you don’t think that things like this would happen to you. You go through the motions but show no emotion. Your asked constantly how you feel but always shudder from the truth. You couldn’t possibly be one of them. The ones that have the issues, the person that isn’t completely sane, the one that needs the professional help or things will get worse. It’s a scary feeling, almost helpless, like an alien in your own body. This is all too common, so common that’s it’s not discussed enough that those that need help scream silently cause they are afraid no one will truly hear them. You’d never think that the person sitting next to you smiling and waving at a stranger passing by would be hiding true intentions of self harm. You wouldn’t think that the boy riding a bike on the sidewalk deals with abuse daily and you would never guess that the mother who loves her children unconditionally, who smiles and provides for her babies is suffering from postpartum depression. These are real things. Things that are unseen like the girl being bullied in school by faculty because her outfit will make the boys go crazy.

    We all have our individual thoughts that race through our heads daily, problems that we fight against to the point where it might break us down to the point of exhaustion, ones that are hidden, ones that You as a blatant observer would never notice. Fast paced and moving or full
Of decit. There are reasons that some people, like the examples that I have mentioned above hide the pain, the reasons why they hide the problems from the world. They say the Cancer Zodiac refuses to let others see them as anything but happy because they don’t want to upset anyone. As a Cancer I can relate. It’s easier to keep things in until they bust open at the seems. Why let them see you cry? Let them see you as brave or sweet or some more positive characteristics. We are all screwed up, we just don’t want anyone else to know. That’s why when company comes over we race to clean our homes, hiding away our dirty laundry so the impression we give is the best. This coexists with the nature we have to be wanted. So we’d never think, that underneath it all there is a broken person dying for affection, that there is a sad young mother who cries nightly.

I hate to admit when things are wrong even with my own health. We as people tend to think that we would never deal with health issues that leave us questioning why. I myself never saw my health issues coming, it makes me feel like a failure in a way, not only to myself but my children. It’s unexpected and can only be helped if I let the doctor help me. Scary and in a nutshell, I find myself reversing backward into my own bubble, denial. You’d never think that things that happen to others would happen to you..

Thanks
Maddie